I could do without this.
I don't really want to write a pain blog, but I've been living with chronic pain for most of my life and very intensely for the last five years, and maybe it'll help redeem some of the suffering if I'm not alone with it.
Somehow I just can't reconcile myself to this daily trawl through the Stanford pain scale. Despite endless meditation, I have never found peace with my pain experiences through anything other than drugs or massage.
This evening, I have a muscular wedgie pain. Those are the muscles that have decided to go into spasm. I'd give them a 7 together with the pins and needles pressure pain low groin which is pressure/numb/painful. That's after pain relief. Oh and the feeling like someone is sitting on my stomach.
Today so tired, sleeping so much, now my body is running a marathon on its own. I'm also still wheezing, so in the morning I need to make a choice about whether or not I take the propranolol. Lately I've been getting anxious and actually feeling panic kick off because the pain has sometimes got so bad.
I doubt anyone will read this, but it might help me.
